We've got a house! Yay! Yay! Yay! In about two weeks time, I will be moving out to live in Birmingham with my friend Ceri's boyfriend and his mate. Yippee!
We won't have a computer there - or, if we do, we won't have internet access - until I get my arse in gear and buy one for moi or until I get a job. Therefore, I don't know what will happen with email or with this webpage. Hmm..
Watch this space.. You still have two weeks of me pestering you whatever happens, ha haa..!!
Mark has a phone on his oil rig!! Yay! He called yesterday, except, typically, I didn't get to the phone in time, so he left a message on my answering machine instead.
I have listened to the message about three zillion times already. I wish he didn't make me smile so much.
I think, however, that it may have been easier had I not known he had a phone, because now I am going to have to stalk the phone like a lunatic until he calls again! Dammit
Sometimes I am such a typical girl. It really drives me mad..!!
Wednesday, September 6, 2000 09:03 a.m.
Ryan (the Ex) once said to me "You're a mystery. Like a jigsaw puzzle. There are so many different parts of you to fit together. I don't feel I'll ever know every single bit of you."
Not really sure why this has been on my mind as much as it has recently.. Not even sure why the hell I'm telling you it, even, but there you go!!
I am still quite devastated by the fact that people want to work on oil rigs.. And also by the fact that they don't put phone lines that work very often on oil rigs.. Grr..
We may have a house! We may have a house! Watch this space. I could be leaving you very soon. Fingers crossed! Hee hee!
Tuesday, September 5, 2000 02:15 p.m.
I have had a fantastic weekend with Mark. I do not feel like elaborating at the moment, because I have been on this computer for hours and hours & it's doing my head in.
Also, I just spent ages downloading a song on Napster that claimed to be the Big Brother theme tune, and I waited for about three years for it to finish downloading, but when tried to listen to it WASN'T THE BIG BROTHER THEME TUNE. So I am quite gutted now & may go sulk.
Why do they send people out on oil rigs for days? What is so good at working on an oil rig? Why don't the phone lines always work from oil rigs?
Damn Mark and his working on an oil rig. Damn damn damn.
Last night, he made me listen to an entire CD of Scottish bagpipe music, while he marched up & down the room saluting & generally going mad!! Even though bagpipes are possibly the worst instrument ever, it amused me very much. He is lovely & quite insane, and I like lovely & quite insane people.
Damn Mark and his working on an oil rig. Damn always having to say goodbye to good people. Damn damn damn.
Sunday, September 3, 2000 08:33 p.m.
I am going to stay with Mark tomorrow! Yay! Yay! Yay!
I am also going to be moving away very very soon! Yay! Yay! Yay!
I don't feel safe that these two good things could happen at once. I'm sure it's too good to be true. Ho hum.
Thursday, August 31, 2000 03:15 p.m.
Well, I almost did yet another disappearing act on you all there, didn't I? In all honesty, I completely forgot I had this thing, and completely forgot there were people out there who gave a shit what I was up to. I do apologise. I'll try not to let it happen again.
I met Mark on Saturday. He is lovely and Scottish (I know I keep on bringing up his Scottishness, but, honestly, if you could just understand how obsessed I am with that accent..!) and I think this may be the start of something. I'm not quite sure what it will be, but it will definitely be Something.
We have two problems facing us, you see.. One is the distance. He lives about two hours away and works in an oil rig many many hours away. However, this distance is soon to be extended even more, so that he will live about four hours away and work many many many hours away.
People keep telling me, and I actually do think I believe, that a long distance relationship would be good for me. It would practically force me into learning how to trust, and also stop me from doing my wonderful party-piece, which is falling so deeply for someone that I forget where they end and I begin - becoming so wrapped up in someone else's life that mine gets mislaid. Being apart would mean I would have to concentrate on my own life, and that is definitely Good.
However, I will miss hugs. Because, once I've got someone to hug, I do crave them quite incessantly. Ho hum. And I think that is the main reason why distance would be a problem.
The second problem we have is Ro's usual obsession, which is the Afraid of Being Hurt thing. Because I am absolutely petrified of being hurt.
We will gloss over this, however, as I'm sure I do go on about it rather a lot & you're all rather tired of hearing me moan about it.
Besides, Mark and I don't even have a relationship as such yet. I don't know what we have or what we'll decide. I am hopefully going to visit him very very soon, and then we'll see what happens.
My second piece of news is quite amazing. I am LEAVING HOME. I am MOVING OUT. I am FINALLY GETTING AWAY FROM THIS EVIL HOUSE. And I'm not even moving out & still living round here - I will be miles & miles & miles away! Can you believe it? I found out last Friday and it still hasn't quite sunk in. I should be leaving here in about two weeks time. Shit. Shit shit shit. This is truly amazing. I will let you know more when I have got my head round it myself.
Hope you're all well & happy my dears! Sorry about the not-replying-to-emails thing. I'm just about to work on that now!
Wednesday, August 30, 2000 10:23 a.m.
