I'm seeing Mark on Saturday. He's coming to the Leeds Festival for the weekend (Leeds is v. close to where I live) and actually said he'd pay for me to come up one of the days (in fact, he said the whole weekend, but I feel guilty enough about him paying one day, let alone the whole weekend). So, I'm going on Saturday.
I am so fucking nervous and excited and scared and all kinds of other things.
I have not had these feelings about a bloke for a long time. It is probably very dangerous for me to have these feelings, but nevertheless, I am quite prepared to throw myself in at the deep end with this and see what happens. I will not run away this time. Oh no.
Really. That Scottish accent.. You have no idea..! It makes me weak at the knees just thinking about it..
If you have asked for the password for my self-obsessed journal & I haven't got back to you yet, please be patient! The server my journal is on is being a pain in the arse & I can't add new users, so please hold on! Also, if I owe you email, be patient with that too. I'm a complete lazy arse at the moment! That is my only excuse!
Hope you're all happy & well, my dears!
Thursday, August 24, 2000 08:11 p.m.
Mark (the guy from V2000) has just called me. He wants to see me this weekend.
How is this happening?! Why did he call?! Why does he want to see me?! What the hell is going on?!
This isn't what I'm used to! I'm used to nice blokes disappearing of into the wild blue yonder! Aaarghh!!
He is fantastic, and Scottish (mmm.. Scottish accent) and he was unbelievably sweet to me, and I do want to see him, but I'm scared scared scared. Ho hum...
There is still time for him to disappear, isn't there? I mean, he still could. I don't want him to, of course, but it's just easier if he disappears because then I don't have to have all these strange paranoid feelings. Aaaarghh..!
I will see him, and it will be fine. Honest. No really. I just have to remember to breathe, and not to be too paranoid. Aargh..!!
Wednesday, August 23, 2000 01:52 p.m.
Hello lovely people! :o)
I have spent the past weekend at the V2000 festival, and am consequently exhausted & starving & unable to concentrate properly on anything.. However, I did have a fantastic time, so it's all good!
I will write an entry about it for my self-obsessed journal as soon as I can get my head to think properly.
I met a guy there. He was fantastic, of course, but, as with all such things, he lives too far away for anything to happen.
Why do all the great people seem to come and go from my life, and the crappy ones just stick around? It's so unfair..!
By the way, I don't think my self-obsessed journal is working properly at the moment. I can't seem to access it at all. If you're having the same problems accessing my journal, please let me know and I'll try to sort it out.
Also, if you have sent me email lately & I haven't replied, please bare with me. I am braindead at the moment, but I will get back to you asap, ok?!
Tuesday, August 22, 2000 02:18 p.m.
